User blog comment:Wikity Split/An Important Announcement/@comment-27516045-20180224205420/@comment-34805418-20180225021359

I haven't really declared a war against the admins. Cloudy admits he's neutral and Vel! is rarely on here, so I wouldn't really consider it as much of a war as a "sustained temporal period during which actions may be taken contrary to the will of the other" - there's a big difference.

Really, I want to just get along with the admins. If they want to vs me in a block war I'll outlast them easily, but really I'm sick of not getting along and feeling like I'm going to be banned out of the blue every single moment.

Doesn't anyone get it? Despite all my words of frustration I really just want to get along, (in fact that's the reason why I'm frustrated)! This is one of the only places where I feel I have a voice which is listened to for something useful, and I never want to lose that, (or in particular, admit I already have).

(Okay, I'm doing deep breaths right now.)

Listen, I don't want to comment here anymore, continuing the discussion this far was a mistake. In closing I'd like to say I'm still only hoping to do good for this wiki, even if circumstances make it extremely difficult for me to do so.

Warning: The below text was written under the influence of emotion and may not be the most becoming to my image. Read with discretion.

I'm sorry for what I did, but I shouldn't have to "suffer" after already doing so, I've done that enough. Can you really say I need to be punished after wanting to slash my wrists? Wait a minute...you don't care, my bad, you just want to make me feel bad because you feel I have to sacrifice my joy just to be accepted by you, (or rather, that is the way I feel). I'd cut myself just to prove to you guys I'm willing to suffer to come back here, but I can't do that easily as my Mother would get suspicious if I didn't wear short t-shirts to bed.

I take your words seriously, and I don't really feel right about all these ban evasions, but I just want so badly to prove to everyone I want to do the right thing that I'm willing to go against a ban to do so. I'm sorry for telling you to shut up, that wasn't polite of me, (I only said it was to "justify" my words).

Can I please be friends with either you or ArtismScrub, please? I'll do anything to prove I want to be good.